Good Morning!
It is so weird to be terrified to leave my baby at school, not because some crazy might shoot up the school but because he might have a seizure. I spend all of my days waiting on the phone to ring and have someone say you need to get to the school right now. I need to invest in some nerve pills. My babies are my life, for the longest I didnt want kids but I grew up and had that "mom" bug to bite me. My oldest Amari is 8 biologically he isnt mine but I love him the same, next there is my 1st born Russ, and then there is Micah who is 9 months. I keep telling my fiance I want/need a girl because it is so unfair being the only female in the house. He isnt going for that, he said he cant handle 2 of me. My fiance is the best thing since sliced bread. He is my equal and I just love him to death. He stepped in and took the role as "daddy" to Russ and I appreciate that so much. Laton (my fiance) had Amari when we met and I fell in love with this kid. Our family has come such a long way. We are in the process of paying off a house and fixing it up. My boys have their room and I had to have a special room for my other children. Yes I consider my nieces and nephews to be my other children. Jasmine, Rayven, Tadrian, Cortez, and KT. and lets not even start counting Latons' nieces and nephews. Jasmine and Rayven are my "daughters" and I dont know where I would be if it wasnt for their help! I am so blessed to have them especially with Russ having his episodes. Jasmine really stepped up during the 1st one I was trembling and she was calm and handled the 911 call. I wish i could give them the things they want but sadly we are still feeling this reccession. Today is my 1st day kid free in a long time and I just dont know what to do with myself. Well walking track here i come.
Monday, August 22, 2011
Sunday, August 21, 2011
The Beginning
Hi, I am a 30 year old mom with 3 boys.
(I have chronic hypertension, CHF, spondylosis, spinal arthritis, herniated disk, bulges on my spine, no cartiliage in my knees, and spurs behind both kneecaps! But hey Mommy doesn't get a sick day. )
My middle son is 4.5 yrs old and in April he begin having seizures. I fyou havent been through it, then you dont know my pain. He is my first born (biological) son and for the longest it was just us. So in April we woke up as usual, cut the tv on, fixed the baby a bottle and started to hang out. My niece stayed with me that night and as she walked into my room I stood up to get something off the dresser and she asked whats wrong with him? I turned to see my baby in the middle of a seizure. OMG the things that my body went through. I jumped into "Supermom" mode, I hit the alarm for the paramedics, told my niece to call 911, and grabbed him out of the bed and headed for the door. I stopped to regain my composure and called my parents, by that time AAA showed up and thank God for them. We stayed at the hospital for hours and left with no answers.
(I have chronic hypertension, CHF, spondylosis, spinal arthritis, herniated disk, bulges on my spine, no cartiliage in my knees, and spurs behind both kneecaps! But hey Mommy doesn't get a sick day. )
2ND EPISODE: I took my youngest to the doctor and as soon as I hit the door my signal picked back up and it was the Daycare of his daycare. They had headed to the hospital with my baby. Of course I was worried but a little relieved because his TT (my sissy) was his teacher. She went into a panic of course but thats my sissy.lol. On that visit they gave him medicine to control it. I was very skeptical about this medicine but thats just my Motherly instincts kicking in. The medicine was a very old medicine that people used to take and it made this little boy jump off the wall. I felt like I needed medication but my baby was "fine" he was joking and playing with the nurses.
NOW: he has had maybe 4 episodes since the first and each time I panic. My fiance and I take turns sleeping in the bed with him bc my research on the computer said "BENIGN ROLANDIC EPILEPSY IN CHILDREN" episodes occur mostly while the child is sleep. So we are always on pins and needles, day and night. I started this blog for any other parent who may have a sick child and need to put their feelings out there and cant sleep. More post to come
(I have chronic hypertension, CHF, spondylosis, spinal arthritis, herniated disk, bulges on my spine, no cartiliage in my knees, and spurs behind both kneecaps! But hey Mommy doesn't get a sick day. )
My middle son is 4.5 yrs old and in April he begin having seizures. I fyou havent been through it, then you dont know my pain. He is my first born (biological) son and for the longest it was just us. So in April we woke up as usual, cut the tv on, fixed the baby a bottle and started to hang out. My niece stayed with me that night and as she walked into my room I stood up to get something off the dresser and she asked whats wrong with him? I turned to see my baby in the middle of a seizure. OMG the things that my body went through. I jumped into "Supermom" mode, I hit the alarm for the paramedics, told my niece to call 911, and grabbed him out of the bed and headed for the door. I stopped to regain my composure and called my parents, by that time AAA showed up and thank God for them. We stayed at the hospital for hours and left with no answers.
(I have chronic hypertension, CHF, spondylosis, spinal arthritis, herniated disk, bulges on my spine, no cartiliage in my knees, and spurs behind both kneecaps! But hey Mommy doesn't get a sick day. )
2ND EPISODE: I took my youngest to the doctor and as soon as I hit the door my signal picked back up and it was the Daycare of his daycare. They had headed to the hospital with my baby. Of course I was worried but a little relieved because his TT (my sissy) was his teacher. She went into a panic of course but thats my sissy.lol. On that visit they gave him medicine to control it. I was very skeptical about this medicine but thats just my Motherly instincts kicking in. The medicine was a very old medicine that people used to take and it made this little boy jump off the wall. I felt like I needed medication but my baby was "fine" he was joking and playing with the nurses.
NOW: he has had maybe 4 episodes since the first and each time I panic. My fiance and I take turns sleeping in the bed with him bc my research on the computer said "BENIGN ROLANDIC EPILEPSY IN CHILDREN" episodes occur mostly while the child is sleep. So we are always on pins and needles, day and night. I started this blog for any other parent who may have a sick child and need to put their feelings out there and cant sleep. More post to come
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